Monday, July 27, 2009

there's no place like home I've moved again, it's not a big or exciting move, it actually feels like a big step backwards. But, I guess that's fine, sometimes you have to take some steps back before moving forwards. I'm now living in my parent's house. This is the first time I've done so in 8 years. I feel like a super big loser, but I know it's temporary and that before too long I'll get my ducks in a row and I'll be out on my own again. I just feel like I may have made a very big mistake, I left LA a year ago, moved into an apartment in NYC with my supposed best friend and now I'm in this very shitty situation where I don't have a full time job, don't know where I'm going to school and no idea where to live. It kind of sucks to feel this way, but I guess I brought this upon myself, I wanted to shake things up and I never wanted to spend the rest of my life in Los Angeles; things were just so much more stable there and I didn't realize things would take so long to fall into place here. I had a job, an amazing apartment, a social life. And now here I am a year later with none of the above.

And the cherry on top of this glorious sundae is that my room at the house is a disaster area! I don't have any room for anything; the bedroom is more of a museum of my past accomplishments than a room. I know I need to make the room livable, but I don't want to spend an insane amount of time to fix up the room when I know it's a temporary situation. Seems like a waste, and I also don't want to make the room too appealing cause I do want to leave sooner rather than later..

Monday, June 15, 2009

Cause it feels just like I'm walking on broken glass

walkin' on, walkin' on...broken glass.

Yeah, as the title and catchy tune suggests I very recently fell victim to the fiendish plot of a rogue piece of glass wanting to spend Sunday afternoon in the heel of my left foot. And I swear, as god as my witness I will never walk barefoot in my apartment again! (picture scarlett o'hara making a slightly different promise) But seriously glass in the foot, not fun! At first I wasn't even sure if it was glass, all I knew was that it hurt like a son of a bitch (sorry for the swear, but it really did hurt). I'll leave out all the gory details, but I will say that the piece of glass is now out of my foot and I avoided having to go to the hospital, so that's good. I really didn't want it to be a big ordeal.

Anyway, I think that's all, I just felt like posting about it. It happened, felt like sharing. The end.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

A Clever Title

I suck at updating blogs...I find it strange that I do in fact have 3 blogs right now and I never update a one of 'em. But I'm trying and doesn't that count for something?!

So let's see, since I last posted I completed my semester as a non-matriculating student at CCNY. My grades still haven't been posted and I've been anxiously waiting to get an email from one of my professors about our final project. But I shouldn't be holding my breath cause that teacher was a little insane in the membrane. But at least the books she made us read were informative and educational. I now have to figure out a great many things. Like where to non-matriculate in the fall and where to finally matriculate in the spring. I wanted to bulk up my GPA before applying to Education Graduate Programs. I think I have a fear of rejection, but that's neither here nor there.

Anyway, I also need to find a new job....perhaps a job that involves education....and children. Plus I'm also kind of sick of my hour and a half commute to Queens. That's been a pain in my butt for the past 10 months. I need to try to focus and study for my LAST exam which I'm taking a week from Saturday. Lots to do and here I sit at 2:30 on a Thursday morning doing none of it. Instead I'm just worrying, I found out today that my roommate wants out of our apartment as of August 1st. So that's fun....not knowing where I'm going to live. I can't afford the apartment myself and I don't even LOVE it, certainly not enough to stay and try to find a new unknown roommate. I can barely live with a friend, I definitely prefer living alone. Man, that was the life. In LA I had a one bedroom apartment that I loved!!! It actually pained me to give it up.

Anyway, I think I'm done whining this morning, but it's nice to see all the things I need to be doing written out like this, lots to do. I guess this is what happens when you move across the country and want to make changes in your life, I'm not sure if I like it just yet.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


Hello and welcome to my blog. For some reason I've been very into blogs lately, I don't know why. And I don't know what I have to offer the world, in terms of blogging, but I'll give it a go.

Tonight I had my first class, I'm taking graduate courses as a non-matriculating student and working my way towards becoming certified to teach and ultimately get a masters in education. I'm quite excited, while also quite nervous. I've been out of school for almost 5 years. I got my undergraduate degree in 2004, so I'm a little rusty, but I'm hoping my gusto and interest in becoming a teacher will help me succeed. Anyway, I think that's it for now, I've got work and more school tomorrow, maybe I'll update tomorrow with an anecdote or something, we'll see.